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This Sunday is April Fool’s Day.  May we all be wise.  My Elderplan coverage takes effect on April 1st.  I already have an appointment with my primary care physician, Dr. Tavdy, for April 4th.  I do not know for sure what God has in store for me, but I’m feeling pretty good.

Soon, I’ll be meeting with Josefa and Hannan.  I wonder what’s on their minds.  Josefa recently said things, “are finally good”.  I hope so, for every one’s sake.

Two plumbers are here in my apartment.  They are working on a rebuilt section of wall that had to be exposed for the replacement of a major pipe in my master bedroom.  The old pipe was exposed for months.  I hope that my building returns to normal soon.  There’s been repairs of one kind or another for the past four years.

Dora was in good spirits when she left for work this morning.  After all, it’s Spring, and tomorrow is Friday.  Also, she is happy with her back treatment.  God bless Dora, and us all.

My sister is safely back in Florida.  She’s seems happy.  She will be back in NYC in July.  My Mom enjoyed my sister’s visit. My mother sounds well.  Josefa sounds well.  My sister sounds well.  Dora is happy.  I am a lucky man.

I’m back in touch with Mick, and hope to meet with him soon.  Perhaps our act, “Mick & Nick” can be revived.  He and Carole are doing as well as can be expected.  Rebirth is upon us.

I am meeting with Josefa, my cousin, and her husband, Hannan, for lunch the day after tomorrow. I like them both. I don’t remember when I last saw them — several years ago, perhaps. They asked my mother and sister if they could meet me by myself; without my mother and sister present. I wonder why. Dora also wonders why.

Today is a wondrous day. I am A-OK. Let the past cease to exist as quickly as possible. Don’t hold grudges. I am thankful for what I have. I am filtering out other people’s greed, and concentrating on what I have, not what I don’t have. If God wants me to, I will live out my life in Forest Hills — where I’ve been most of the time since 1952. I hope to finish circulating my songs and literature and drawings.

All’s well that ends well.

I visited my mother and my sister at my mother’s apartment yesterday afternoon.  We are on good terms.  I am also on good terms with Dora.  Judy will be in Israel this May.  Dora will be in  Denver this May.  My mother will be in Florida this July.  Rina, my eldest niece, is coming to NYC soon.  Josefa, my cousin, is already in town.  We are all on good terms with God.

I am looking forward to my next car rental.  I hope to rent a car for a few days every month.  I enjoyed driving earlier this month.  Renting a car on a regular basis  will diversify my life.

I need to be on good terms with the present.  I must not dwell on the past.  I have paid my dues, and now I would like to enjoy myself as much as possible.  It wouldn’t hurt to find a lover.  I would like to be on good terms with a new lover.

I must accept myself fully before it’s too late.  Most of all, I need to be on good terms with myself.  I am a worthy Artist.

I am determined not to fall prey to my past.  I must stay focused on my poetry, songs, journals, essays, and drawings, as I continue to minimize contact with my mother.  She has been sadistic towards me too often.  I will also continue to keep my sister at arm’s length.  Too much has gone down from the Russo-Elkin camp.  I have been mistreated by Yehuda, Rina, Michele, Judy, and Alla.  I’m in pretty good shape.  I have worked hard since being released from Elmhurst Hospital on 8/15/03.  I cannot allow the Russo-Elkin camp to undermine the progress that I have made; especially since surviving my heart attack last December.

The weather is gradually getting better, and I hope to take advantage of it.  I would like this Spring and Summer to find me more active than I have been the past three and a half years.  I need to walk and walk and walk.  I need to get out of my apartment as often as prudent.

At this time, I’m not sure if I’ll return to strumming and singing; but I hope to.  I’m more myself when I’m singing some of the time.

Tonight, I’ll be at the NAMI Poetry Workshop meeting.  Friday, I’ll be meeting with my sister and mother.  I must stay on my toes.  Soon, I’ll also be meeting with Josefa and my mother.

Life can still be sweet.  I must be cautious and determined.

It was a still, calm, sunny morning in Forest Hills today.   Quite picturesque with the snow on the ground — truly a winter wonderland.

Dilbar{Dora} has been ill. In addition to her chronic back condition, she came down with Bronchitis this past weekend. She went to work today, after staying home and resting these past two days. Life is a struggle, at least at times.

In addition to Judy coming to town the day after tomorrow, Josefa is arriving in New York City this coming Saturday. I expect to see them both soon.

I have been minimizing contact with my mother of late. There is such a thing as too much of a good thing. God bless my mom, but she is a strain on my heart, and I need to have less to do with her than I have been. I will be seeing her soon.

Tomorrow, I will be attending the NAMI Poetry Workshop for the first time in months. It is led by Hannah Craven. I need to take my mind off my everyday world for awhile.

I have not seen Sharon Jacobs since February of 2001; and I have not seen Ann Progler since August of 2000. I have not seen Franee Cavaliero since May of 2002. I last called Sheila Steinberg in January of 2002. The old girls are just history.

I hope to finish another drawing soon. I continue to publish my poems at http://www.poetrypoem.com/nickchina

I am toying with the idea again of returning to guitar strumming and to singing. I’m not sure what the future holds for me; but I need to be a Creative Artist.

After some further research, I have decided against Bypass surgery.  I do not believe that Byass surgery is helpful in most cases, if not all.  My only current medical appointment is with Dr. Yanover on 4/8/07.  She is a Naturopath.  I am especially hopeful that she will help me with my supplementation. 

The only prescription medicines that I am now taking are Coreg, Altace, Lexapro, and Abilify.  My health is improving.  Yesterday morning, Dr. Rudy said that I was doing remarkably well.  We agreed that our session yesterday would be our last one since I begin with Elderplan on 4/1/07.  Dr. Rudy said that he would contact me if he joined the Elderplan Network.

You can find me at http://www.cdbaby.com/nickchina

http://www.myspace.com/litvin

Also, I’m usually only an hour away from my apartment.

I hope that Peace finds us all soon.

I could use a temperate climate.  I am yearning for warmth in the aftermath of my collision with American Society.

The stove man was here a little while ago.  One of my stove’s burners went bad.  The repair man was only able to get the bad burner to light up with the use of matches.  He has ordered a new burner for me and Dora.  It will take some time before the new part arrives.

Dora is having her third Decompression session today.  She is hopeful that her chronic back pain can be greatly alleviated.  Today, she also has a cold.  We are both looking forward to our next car rental.

During our car rental of 4/6/07, I will be seeing a Naturopath in order to investigate alternatives to Heart Surgery.  Thank God there are intelligent, nurturing people who do not conform mindlessly to Western Medicine.

I am satisfied with the way I am behaving.  I am not infringing on anyone’s rights or freedom.  I am blogging honestly.  Yesterday, I published a poem at http://www.poetrypoem.com/nickchina

God continues to bless me.  The other day, Virginia said that I was very fortunate to still have a mother.  She also said my buidling was a good one in a great location.  I am ready to live out my days in Forest Hills in this very apartment.

I regret that the world is too much with us.  I would like to see Humane Ideals fulfilled.

A woman named Virginia signed me up for Elderplan yesterday afternoon.  I will not be on original Medicare beginning 4/1/07.  Elderplan will save me money.  Virginia is a nice person.

I will no longer be seeing Dr. Frank or Dr. Fitzig.  They are disappointments.  And tomorrow will be the last time that I see Dr. Rudy.  I will be seeing Elderplan doctors from now on.  But my emphasis will be on Alternative Medicine.  Soon, I will see a Naturopath, whose services are not covered by insurance.  Mainstream American doctors cut and run too much.

Dora has started expensive Decompression treatment for her back, which also is not covered by insurance.  She is okay.  Lately, she has been eating a lot of Turkish pistachio nuts.  She enjoyed our recent Upstate weekend.  I’m renting a car again on 4/6/07.  Dora will travel with me.  Our relationship will remain platonic.

My new desk is almost fully assembled — just the drawers have to be put together.  It is a beautiful desk!  I’m thankful to my mother and Dora for getting the desk for me.  George, the Handyman, will finish assembling the desk for me the day after tomorrow.

My mother and my heart are holding up well, as far as I can tell.  Change is inevitable.  Change is constant.  It will be a great change for the better when George W. Bush leaves office.

Dora is in a good mood this morning.  Soon, she will leave for work.  I am looking forward to going Upstate with her this Saturday.  We will visit Bear Mountain Park, and stay overnight in Monticello.  We will visit Port Jervis on Sunday.  I hope to have a good time this weekend.

I spoke to my mother last night.  She is okay.  I am looking forward to her continuing good health.  It is she who is making my weekend getaway with Dora possible.  And it is Dora and my mother that ordered a new desk and a new chair for me.  They arrived yesterday.  It was easy to put the chair together; but it’s going to take some effort to put the desk together.  However, I am looking forward to having a new desk.

My sister recently thanked me for the copies of, “Black Power”, that I sent her.  She said that she would frame one of the copies.  Judy will be sixty-five years old on 5/7/07.  I’m sure that she and my mom are looking forward to spending a week together beginning on 3/21/07.

Hatred is too stressful.  I am striving for positive thinking.  I’ve gone through a lot; but there’s no point in beating a dead horse, or crying over spilt milk.  I need to go forward.

After sending six copies of my EP, “Ms. Hooker Is Running Free”, to indiecentric, I have twenty-one copies of it left.  I will have to make more copies of, “Ms. Hooker Is Running Free”, soon.  My EP still brings me pleasure.

I finished a new drawing yesterday afternoon; it’s called, “Smokey”.  I put away my drawing pad and magic markers.  I won’t draw again anytime soon.  I will be blogging more often, and publishing more poems at http://www.poetrypoem.com/nickchina

I will also continue to promote my EP.

The weather is gradually getting better again.  I hope to be more active.

Matters are stable.  Americans are leaving  me alone, after damaging me a great deal previously.  My sister is visiting my mom for a week, beginning on 3/21/07.  Dora  and I will be Upstate this weekend.  No one is bothering me.  I do not hate my mom.  I am lucky to have her.  I have vetoed the various criticisms of my mom by my former psychotherapists.

My current psychiatric treatment consists of monthly visits to Dr. Rudy, and taking 15 mgs. of Abilify each day, plus 20 mgs. of Lexapro each day.  Dr. Rudy has not criticized my mother.